the world of a vlogger

Some people….

When you make comments on when I eat, how much I eat, or any of that junk, I’m going to want to punch you in the face…. so cut it out. Don’t be stupid. You know eating disorders run in my family.

I won’t take your bull shit provoking comments.

Hey becca, I haven't talked to you in awhile, but I've noticed you're going through some issues and I'm hoping you can work them out. I'll be here to support you however I can, so if you ever need someone to listen or just hang out with don't hesitate to give me a call. I'm actually really busy right now with graduating, but I will try my best to help if you need anything. But with that aside, we need to hang out in the future soon anyway. hope things can look up soon - Jacey

teashotss

Thank you so much Jacey :)

It means a lot to me to have a friend say they’re here for me.

Important Update

I hope some of my friends at least read this.

I have been thinking… I’m just going to delete a bunch of accounts and just keep a journal. This way I don’t have to worry about pleasing anyone. The Internet is definitely too hard to please. And I’m more concerned about myself right now.

Also quitting pot. I had some last night and decided that it would be a terrible idea to continue. I hadn’t felt that suicidal in a while. That’s an overly open thing to say, but I’m treating this as a journal entry.

I’m also avoiding alcohol now. I need to get medicated for whatever I have as soon as possible. I can’t handle it.

I will be deleting this account, but not my art one. Thinking of deleting my facebook too. Maybe. Or I might just not post anything on there other than music and photos.

Really, if it weren’t for art and the people I love I would be dead by now.

Uhm. Ok. So that’s my face.

A photo I took last night. I was really focused on how weird my legs looked.

I shouldn’t be drinking right now. I feel terrible about how I feel right now. Someone sap me right now. I shouldn’t be posting right now. Have a good night everyone. I keep saying now… I’ll probably delete this post later. Bye.

Hun, if you're normal, then I am just plain boring. I don't mean that you're weird or different in a bad way; not at all. I love who you are as an individual. You are the only Becca like you. You're not normal, by any standards. You're one of the most creative persons I know. Your art and your thoughts prove that too. -Muah <3

little-w-h-0-r-e-s

Thank you.
I’m terrified of being normal. Or average… Whatever people call it these days.

Just… Don’t bother reading it.

I think I’m normal, but I don’t want to accept it. If I accept it I’ll never have motivation to even be alive again.

ORANGE! GREEN! VIOLET! GO!

sick-with-sin

Six fears:

-Dying young

-Never finding or losing the love of my life

-Divorce

-Never getting anywhere I want to get

-People leaving me

-The parts of me I suppress

Four life goals:

-Open a gallery with friends

-Become an illustrator

-Be the best friend/family member I can be.

-Demolish my fears

One thing I love:

-Being accepted